Sunday, November 2, 2008


So, I tried to make a vow that I would keep up with this lil blogging thing. At the time I created it, I had quite a bit going through my mind. Worries about keeping my relationship with Luis, worried about my brother who had a motorcycle accident a little over 2 months ago. But now, things are just.... well, ALMOST, amazing.

In a little under a week, I'll be making an 8 or so hour journey to go get my love, Luis. It's a day that's been almost 5 years in the making. A lot of people never believed that we would make it this long. And at times, I'm sure neither one of us thought that we would as well. A long distance relationship is not for the weak at heart... and is DEFINITELY not for everyone. I would do it all over again with him, but not for anyone else. I'm not sure I could make it. I have learned, though, you don't have to be face to face with another to actually fall in love with them. In some ways, it can be a bit easier over the phone, or internet. But only for a little while. You get to be lonely. Your heart is full of love, but your arms are empty. It becomes discouraging. But now.... I'm going to get him, he's gonna be here. Things are gonna be rough, but it's gonna be SO much easier with him here. He's my calm, my zen. He can make everything go away, and reappear in the most beautiful light. Things are totally beginning to fall into place.

As for my brother, things are shaping up with him. In August, on his wife's 28th birthday, he was driving home from work on his motorcycle. The idiot wasn't wearing a helmet. A woman ran a stop sign, and going 50 mph, he tried to stop. His rear wheel locked up and he ended up hitting the woman's car, crushing his right leg. 3 surgeries later, including the discovery that he's allergic to morphine, he's doing great. He still has a halo over his entire leg, but he can walk with a cane. One of the first prognosis after the accident is that they may have to amputate. He's bought a guitar and is teaching himself how to play on his own. He can play the opening chords to Green Day's "Wake Me Up When September Ends" and a Garth Brooks song. I never thought he'd be doing so well, and healing as quick as he has. I broke down when I found out he had an accident. Both of my uncles have had motorcycle accidents. One of them was landed into a full body cast for an entire summer from it. He's so lucky to be alive.... and I'm so lucky to still have him around. Since he's had the accident, every time he calls our house, he makes sure to ask to talk to me.... some of the times, he just calls for me. This is a far cry from how our relationship once was. We went through the "I Hate You" phase.... we barely talked for the longest time after he moved out. Now... he's the big brother he once was long ago. I owe some of that to his wife. She's calmed him down a lot.

Now... *sighs* I've rambled enough. I'm guilty of the rambling. I guess I'll share a couple of pics of me in my Halloween get up. I've only got the two good pics on here. I have a few more on my cell phone I'm tryin to find. I think my memory card ate them. Anywho, I was a vampire baby doll. I wore a black corset with white stars and some puffy capris that kind of look like bloomers with some flat baby doll looking slippers. But the biggest thing were my vampire fangs. One of my associates complimented my corset, and I opened my mouth to say "Thanks" and she almost fell over. Anyways.... here are the pics!!!


Elizabeth said...

1 more day!!! I'm so excited for you mama. I love you and cant wait to hear all about it. Also I'm glad you and the bro bro are making nice(r). :D and just always remember - no matter what - chicks b4 dicks :D or sisters b4 misters lol whichever u prefer haha

p.s. - u make a stunning vampiress