It's been sooo long!!!!

Ok, I know I said when I first started this blog that I would keep up with it. But this one can't be blamed on me... it's not my fault! I can't control all of the technological world! The night before I left to go get Luis from Mississippi, I turned off the computer after doing a full system scan, and now.... it's dead. So... blah.... I guess I should ramble out all the updates:

First of all, Happy LATE LATE LATE Thanksgiving, Merry Late Christmas, and Happy New Year. I hope everyone had some great holidays. Mine were great for the mere fact I had Luis with me. I had my family around me, and even got to see my brother for the first time since his motorcycle accident in August. This year I feel truly blessed.

I know my last blog was the night before I was going to go get Luis. That had to of been the LONGEST time I've been in a car, EVER. First of all, the drive was through COUNTRY. The only city I can recall really going through is Houston. Then, just the anticipation of getting there, being face to face finally. In 8 hours or so, that all builds up. I was shakin by the time I got there. And... my cell service dropped out 1 hour into the drive, so I was basically alone. But when I got there, things just clicked into place, or well it did for me. I'm not sure about him. But I think it was kind apparent with how we felt. I mean, I couldn't stop smiling or touching him. I couldn't believe that this man I've adored for SO long was finally by my side, where I've felt, heart and soul, he's always belonged.

And, almost 2 months later... I'm still as smitten. I still think he's so gorgeous, he makes my knees tremble. I still have a hard time realizing that he's HERE.... I never thought I'd have a chance with someone like him. He's just so awesome, and I'm falling more and more. It drives me crazy that when he's in an asshole mood or whatever, I can't just NOT CARE what he thinks about me. I do care what he thinks, maybe sometimes more than I think I should. But in my mind, I've been his submissive for so long, it's embedded in me. So.... I feel myself feeling insecure around him at times. I dunno... he's just so much in my eyes, I really do adore him. I just want to be as much to him. I can honestly say, though, I'm the happiest I've been in ages. I just wish I could show him, make him feel, how he makes me feel. I just wanna be his Princess for ever......

Other than that, things are going. I'm on the first vacation of my working life EVER. And to think.... I'm looking for yet another job. I need more money, better hours.... and an all over better job. Uhm.... my beautiful "love child" Olivia is just sprouting like nothing else. She's so gorgeous and perfect, I just wish I could be there to see her grow up. *le sigh* But I have to say, she's got the bestestestest mother ever, so I know she'll be taken care of. She's in great hands....


Okay, so the library is closing pretty soon, I'm gonna start wrapping things up. Whoever reads this... take care, God bless.... HAPPY 2009!!!

SLP.